deadbabymamas are, among many truly wonderful things, worriers. but this comment on a blog should have brought me some relief:

“while a lot can go wrong in the next x# of weeks, think of everything that can go right.”

think of everything that can go right? that can go right? what, are you crazy?

i know that there is nothing to the idea of letting your guard down: i can be as wary as i want and that won’t bring boo here any safer, any healthier. any more alive. i also know that if i’m not wary, that will not bring disaster crashing down around me.

or will it?